we have to do it... ALL OVER AGAIN

After  thinking a lot over the problems i have right now in my hand i have finally come to a conclusion.After failing this time, i thought i will change my way of doing things,i have to take a route which i left long before..i decided that i will not be adamant about choosing the right way, i will just compromise and just do it.But as soon as i decided this thing,my body,my soul and my mind started reacting.I started feeling so low i cant define and express in words. this compromise thing is so so difficult.and today after 2 days i spoke to a friend of mine and after a long discussion i have personally understood that i cant compromise. doing right thing have become a habit now that i cant change. 

i know i have to start once again, and when i say once again i know what i am talking about, here i am talking about starting from scratch .but doing it all again,somehow feels more easy then compromising......

so,here i am with my decision of doing it all over again

Praying again

Prayer...Prayer is something i do to feel connected with the energy which seems to be very very far away from this world..i have believed that when you connect to that energy ,energy of god which is the most positive energy of the universe,the negative parts of your energy get converted into positive parts and you tend to become positive,and we all know how important it is to be positive in this world full of suffering and pain.We need to be positive to take this pain with patience. With experience i have realized that we can't escape this pain and suffering but can only find ways to handle it.And the best way to do this is to feel positive,have faith and believe things will eventually work out...

feeling blank

For past few days i have been feeling very blank.. I guess my box of ideas,positive thoughts,prayers and love has emptied and now what should i do , i don't know..
I have always thought i am a person who believes in living,taking chances and trying ,trying very very hard,but somehow today i have no strength left to believe in what i used to believe.I have a situation here with which i thought i have already fought and won but it has come up again .. what to do ??????