relationships... Can we just break them and forget???

Relationships... very difficult, very important and very precious part of our lives.Relationship can be of any kind Friends,Parental,Brotherly,Godly or otherwise, any relationship is as important as soul to body ...
I am a very emotional person , i get attached too quickly and  specially to human beings.. i have never been able to judge my self , if this is good thing about me or bad. But the truth is " This is what i am , i like it or not".
I have seen people walk in and out of life like anything and ( that is one of the main reasons for me have a bond with God), and i wonder how its so easy for people to just go away, leave us behind and move on.. I dont know whether to appreciate them for there so called 'Detachment' or curse them. It has always been very difficult for me to move on , very very difficult. or should i say i never move on... i am just not able to forget, and the problem is i easily forgive and with forgiveness comes acceptance and hence i dont move on...:) :(

Can we love God for the sake of loving him....

I went to community prayer today , which fortunately i have been attending from my childhood days. While i was in the prayer, as i am going through a bad phase of life i was continuously wishing for his grace. After it was over, i remembered how i used to love God without any questions and expectations before, and today i am full of questions and lots and lots of wishes that i want him to fulfill.
In difficult times of our lives, if don't go to him for help,then whom should we go to.. We have been taught that he is the ultimate and he has all the power in world .And this is what i did today, i told him, i am in great trouble and need help.. i don't know whether he will help me or not,but i will pray and pray till he solves my problems .
Now the question of loving him for the sake of loving, is i realized is only possible when a person is free of all his worries and is happy and satisfied with his day to day life....

my first attempt to feel ok...

when i woke up today , i had a feeling to help myself with this thing of feeling fine....so i decided that i will go and join the sketch club at modern art gallery and also visit an exhibition at the same gallery. i have been procrastinating this thing from a long time,i had many logical reasons to do that,like earlier i had my art classes on Sundays, then when i dropped my art classes because of my so called financial trouble, i was way to worried and stressed out to join any kind of leisure sketching classes and i thought meeting my best friend and sitting & discussing the problems is the only way... but as i said earlier we both are trying to work on this thing of normalcy i realized doing sketching and attending classes the thing i love to do, and this is the only way i can feel happy and NORMAL...so i just went and attended the class and i just loved it , it helped me to forget the pain of what i feel these days and gave me break from every thing...it was blessing in disguise.... i just want my self to attend these classes every Sunday without fail....

Having a normal day is the most difficult these days....

After the successful failure of project life for third time, here i am with wishing for just a normal day...
I dont know who to blame, god or myself but who ever has done this mess should be punished to death.these days me and my friend who is unfortunately going through a same situation are praying and trying every single day lead a normal day. From past 3 months we have been continuously talking about the  problems in our life and trying to find a way out, but all oue efforts seems to be going nowhere..
We are here with no job, no partner and no money..:( its the most ridiculous phase of my life ..
So we decided to be proactive and take an initiative of finding happiness by doing small little things which we used to do and try and feel normal...but believe me its soooooooo damn difficult.... i made cookies today and spent the rest of the time trying to water color but i simply failed in feeling any better.. :(