why god makes us feel he doesn't exist

Its very strange,from the day we are born, we are taught about a power which is called God ..we are taught that there is a someone like a father to protect, love, care and who is far more powerful then any thing and every thing we can even imagine.but then when we start expecting things from that power , things dont seem to be the way we were taught and we get upset and unhappy and start doubting the total existence of almighty...
I dont personally feel that there is no God but i want to request him to make us feel his presence so that we feel more confident and more sure about things which had happened with us and we can feel he is really really there to take care..
i want to request God to see us and have mercy on us , atleast once in a while if not always..

feeling impatient

I feel really impatient to deal of people , people who were supposed to be my ideals but unfortunately they are last people on earth i would ever choose to be my ideals..ofcourse i am talking about my parents,my elders...

i regret to feel this way but thats the way i feel about them..

with course of time i have realized that they are scared of my being better then them and they try to do every thing possible to stop me grow and progress...

self realization -- about many things

i guess today was a day  for self realizations.. i had a discussion with a friend which was mainly dominated by me telling her my 'biography' :) .i was telling the things i remember from my childhood till date, about all the people i met, the effort i have put in to make my relationships work.and when i say relationships, it means each and every relationship i had ,with my parents,my friends etc..i have realized i have put in a lot . i would have been in a far far better position i my life i would have just concentrated on my own life then on working on my relationships..
anyways i have learned the hard way.